hey there.. hey stranger

time really does wonders.. time passes us by in the wink of an eye... time changes the things and people around us... well... I've changed. At times it can be scary when I look back and see how much I have grown, matured and wells.... have a change in mindset, views and ethics.

So here goes... I'm sorry I did not treasured what we used to had when we had it all. I'm sorry that I'm not even sorry that I let you go without fighting for you. I'm sorry for being so immature. I'm sorry that till date, I don't even know if it was indeed love, comfort, or holding on trying to fulfill the dreams and feelings I used to had when nothing was blossoming between us. But.... thanks. thanks. thanks. I've learnt a vaulable lesson.

This time round, the person who managed to heal me from the wounds is going to cause me greater pain. But at least it stopped all the hurt, the what ifs'. To prevent this from happening. I would do what I always do best. Build a wall, maintain that wall, and tell myself... never never never to fall real deep. At the end of it all, I would have to walk away alone with a smile. For it is what I choose to sign up for. Its a new game, a risk, and for now... all I can say is that I'm willingly to change, step out of my comfort zone and put aside what i stand for.

Grant me the sanity to survive it now and later. I might not even recognise myself at this crossroad. But who's to judge...

What I seek for is simple... a love cherished by both parties. a trust deeply bonded. an understanding that no words are required. simplicity. no cheating.

Make it Happen

This time... this year...
Do up all your preparation
Live your life e way u want it to be the next
For its now or never

Do not ever give yourself a chance to look back n ponder about the what if's

Want it so bad
Want it so bad
Make it hungry
Be hungry for your dream

How to Save a Life

Step one you say we need to talk
He walks you say sit down it's just a talk
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

Let him know that you know best
Cause after all you do know best
Try to slip past his defense
Without granting innocence
Lay down a list of what is wrong
The things you've told him all along
And pray to God he hears you
And pray to God he hears you


Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

As he begins to raise his voice
You lower yours and grant him one last choice
Drive until you lose the road
Or break with the ones you've followed
He will do one of two things
He will admit to everything
Or he'll say he's just not the same
And you'll begin to wonder why you came

Where did I go wrong, I lost a friend
Somewhere along in the bitterness
And I would have stayed up with you all night
Had I known how to save a life

move [ing][ed] on

if the past is back to haunt me... just let me creep away... into the dark